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Spiritual Awakening, Why all the Fuss?

For many years, I have worked within the spiritual movement. I was a director of a not for profit organisation that hosted spiritual author events and in that time, I helped organise around 1300 events. So, as you can imagine, I have heard a lot of people who are immersed in the spiritual field speak on a range of topics therein. I was quite a workshop junkie so outside of all this spiritual immersion I also attended many workshops, course and retreats. All of this began with a spiritual awakening some twenty years ago that changed my entire outlook on life and just about everything else. I will say more about this shortly but as an opener in this subject of awakening the greater context is what is happening on the planet now. We are going through a great shift in consciousness, one that will change how we live and interact here on planet earth. Yes this is a grand sweeping statement, one that I have written about in my book Personal Transitions and in other blog posts so I do not want to repeat myself here. You can also listen to my podcast on Riding the Global Wave of Change. In short, this shift will change the way we relate with nature, the way we treat non-human creatures on the planet, the way we live together, the way we love. All our current systems are up for change from education to money to politics to energy. This global shift in consciousness is necessary for the planet and humanity. This shift explains why so many are going through this process that we call spiritual awakening.


What is Spiritual Awakening?

So, what is spiritual awakening all about? The metaphor of awakening implies that the opposite also exists, that of sleeping. A person is asleep when they feel disconnected from their true self, when they are being run by an unaware ego. What this means is that such a person has no idea of the internal forces that are driving him or her. Such an individual will be moved by pleasure, pain, the judgements and opinions of others, their addictive behaviour, and any of the primary ego drivers such as the inner critic, the inner rule maker, the inner perfectionist, the inner pusher, the inner pleaser and so on. These inner selves form a gestalt of selves that we call the personality. This personality is determined by what is acceptable/not acceptable, allowed/not allowed and so on. This includes certain ideas/beliefs and certain emotions. What is not acceptable or allowed forms the shadow within a person. So for example someone who has a driven personality may not allow much relaxation or taking time out. Someone who is driven by pleasing others will find it hard to put themselves first. This gives the very briefest of glimpses into how someone asleep operates in the world. Someone operating from the personality level will have all kinds of mental and emotional barriers to the inner light or soul that wants to break through into the individual’s life. This inner light is reaching out to countless millions right now in an attempt to create a mass awakening on the planet. This light will tend to be resisted by the personality that wants to keep things in order and does not want anything major to rock the boat. When this inner light begins to push up against the personality it starts to awaken dormant ‘shadow’ forces that have been kept out of the loop. Some of these internal aspects may feel quite drawn to spirituality. For instance the inner child has an innate connection to the magic of life. If you take a moment to remember your own childhood you will find instances when you felt magically connected to something greater. I remember one Christmas playing in the snow and felt that the whole world was one big magical playground. A spiritual awakening starts to wake up such inner aspects and this will shake up our reality. As this happens we are no longer driven in the old way. We start to get in touch with our inner sensitivity/vulnerability and creativity/magic. This shakes up our thinking process. We start to question our beliefs about the world. The growing inner light begins to alter our psychology—the way we think, the way we feel and how we perceive the world and it forces us to address the important questions of existence. We start to ask questions such as: Why are we here? What do we want to do? What direction do we take? Where in the world do we truly belong? These run counter to the ego-centric questions, such as: How can I get more of what I want? How can I make more money? How can I climb the status ladder faster? We begin to explore a broader range of emotions. Actually our feelings/emotions are usually one of the first signs that an awakening is happening. We feel differently about things. We may start to be repelled by certain people/situations and attracted to new people/situations. As our connectivity to the inner light stabilises this helps to break the pattern of being driven by purely external forces. Meditation and solitude help this process. We feel empowered by a source that feels new and yet very familiar. This connects us to a greater emotional and spiritual intelligence. We start to feel and then hear the whispers of the soul. We access a gentle inner knowing and in time come to trust it. This helps us take new steps in the world. We begin to explore outside our familiarity zone. We experiment and find out what this inner light wants us to do differently in the world. Spiritual awakening is a uniquely personal experience and can be easy, graceful and beautiful or it can be challenging and very difficult. All awakenings come on this spectrum and even the most beautiful will have elements of challenge and even the most difficult offer elements of beauty. .


There are Beautiful Awakenings

In 1991 I began a beautiful awakening. Like the lotus that arises out of the mud it began with a painful situation, the death of my father. I remember leaving the hospital after he died thinking “there must be more to life than this”. That thought was the crack that the light poured through and over the next 6 months I began a process of exploration which led me to a crystal healer who opened me up and then pointed the way to my first spiritual teacher, Gill Edwards. I read her book Living Magically several times and the words on the page affected me in ways hard to describe. I felt parts of me wake up and wave me on. I was on a new and exciting track. There were challenges since my first wife did not much like the changes in me she was noticing. Within a couple of years we were divorced, which was very challenging because we had two young children aged 9 and 13. I met new soul friends and started volunteering with a spiritual organisation. I explored magic, shamanism and metaphysics. I trained with Gill Edwards for several years and this helped to deepen my trust in my inner light and guidance. The only area not aligned with spirit was my work and in ’97 I resigned from my job in local government and decided to follow the guidance of my heart. This led me to working for the spiritual organisation and by 2000 I was appointed a director and here I stayed for the next 13 years. This journey led me to writing about the nature of work and spirituality in my book The Enlightenment of Work. So during this time I had played with the idea that we create our reality and it really worked. The concept being that the outer world is a mirror of our inner world of thoughts, beliefs, emotions, and choices. Most of us look outside to change our life circumstances. This was a different way of initiating change, make the shift on the inside first, then take action in line with your inner guidance second. This is the magical way and the more I experimented the more I experienced both small and big miracles. If you are interested in this approach you can read my blog post on High Frequency Living and Quantum Reality Creation. This experience of working magically became more consistent over time. In 1998 I met my second long term partner and in 2000 she left her native Italy and came to London. My life had shifted from being a daily slog to a grand adventure. I felt my heart and whole being open to more light. I understood synchronicity and flow, not from an intellectual level but from a daily experience. I felt connected to a wonderful sense of wholeness and divine grace which in just a few short years had put me on a whole new direction in my life. I wrote a few books and had them published. I trained in coaching which I really enjoyed. I trained in some amazing energy clearing/healing techniques. I began to give public talks and ran workshops and retreats. I began offering 121 sessions. Looking back I felt I had awakened from a bad dream. I had fallen in love with the world and my life. Everything seemed possible. I was learning and growing. Life became my learning ground. My steps felt guided by unseen hands of light.

There are Difficult Awakenings

The awakening in 1991 set me on a course that lasted for about twenty years. This was an amazing period. Towards the end of this I was living with someone I loved and I was doing work that I loved. But there was a growing sense of unease that began to increase around 2006. I had hit an impasse, I was not really growing anymore. I felt by this time that I had heard and seen it all. I had become ‘spiritually arrogant’.My cup was full and there was no room for any new insights, wisdom or experiences. I had the sense that something was not quite right and tried a number of avenues to sort it out. I tried healing, coaching, changing aspects of my work, going on retreat. Nothing really shifted these feeling of unease. 2009 began a number of painful physical issues that continued for the whole year. One of these was a painful back problem that began after a game of squash. I felt there was a problem in my relationship and tried to discuss it but did not get very far. Then, in 2010 it was all taken out of my hands, another awakening unexpectedly erupted in my life, this time the trigger was a Tantric meditation. This was unexpected because I had done this meditation many times over the years without anything major happening. This time something very different happened. I felt an explosion of energy in my lower body which continued for some time. It was as if I was standing on shaky ground but the shaking came from inside. This continued for some months very intensively and left me feeling very discombobulated. It was later when I decided to write about this awakening that I came to understand that I had gone through some form of kundalini experience. This was the catalyst for everything to fall apart which led me into a dark, volatile period of my life. Everything was stripped away, relationship, home, and my work. I resigned as a director of the spiritual organisation and stopped running events. As you can imagine this stripped away the unreal and the superfluous and pushed me out of my familiarity/safety zones. Saying this was a confusing and chaotic time is putting it mildly. My life was turned inside out and upside down. I went through a profound period of grief and sense of meaninglessness as the awakening process continued to do its work. Here old wounds surfaced for healing and integration and I became very sensitive to certain energies and situations. On a couple of occasions the psychic pain was so great and dark that I considered ending my life. I remember standing on the banks of the river Thames thinking it would be an easy matter to jump in and end it all. Yet there was still a glimmer of hope within me that stopped me. So I continued going through the motions. I felt I had reentered the bad dream. But I was not the same. I felt more vulnerable in the world. I found it hard to be around loud or aggressive people. I found it hard being near crowds or too much noise. With all the internal emotional volatility my intuition stopped working. This was very hard because just at the time I needed it most it simply was not there. I no longer felt guided along the path. I felt a crisis of faith in spirit. I felt I had come so far and had fallen from grace. My energy fields were so volatile that I began blowing up electrical devices. This process was quite intense for about 3 years and then began to ease. However, it took 5-6 years to really come out of the process. Now on the other side everything has changed and I find myself in quite a different reality. As you can read this has not been an easy process and it is not one I would choose to go through again. On the other side of such an intense experience I felt I could access my intuition and connection to spirit once again. This time the connection felt stronger and I no longer took this for granted. My old life had been shipwrecked but I was on a new shoreline and here I found a whole new level of creativity, insight, manifestation, adventure and spiritual service. In 2016 I starting offering workshops and other events. I also started offering 121 sessions in a new healing system I had created called Soul Matrix Healing. This is really a synergy of a number of healing and transformational modalities. So coming back to the subject in hand, if you are going through an awakening now do not worry you are not alone. There is plenty of information on this subject through books, the internet which was not available a few decades ago. The more you can embrace and accept your awakening process the better. There is more that I could say but you are welcome to contact me if you have any questions on this subject.


Blessings, Steve Ahnael Nobel.

17 Responses

  1. Dear Steve! By accident:-)I found your card after having moved to Bavarian Forest – quiet, clear air, deep forests,friendly people.. I wonder who you are and asked Google – and found out, we need in 2012 at Glastonbury Tor. We were inside the Tor in a circle of people, different nations, celebrating a spontan ritual singing, dancing, laughing… It was that kind of easygoing! Thats a glimpse of what you’re describe upthere – we all wish to o get out of the box es, no matter where we live, I’m happy to have found you and your marvellous hp now… Heartful greetings, Maria-Anna

  2. Steve, you’re work has helped me so much in my path. Thank you so much for everything you have done. I hope we will meet one day.

    Love & Blessings,

  3. Dear Steve, from my experience what you have been through in the toughest periods, especially the one starting in 2006, is well known by ancient spiritual initiates and is called “the dark night of the soul”. What many lightworkers do not know is that the process of ascension is not linear, is 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, and that’s the good alternative! When one is on a prolonged period of time like months and years on the “2 steps back” track you feel desperate, that although you work spiritually nothing positive happens, things go to pieces around, etc. I’ve been through this period several times and eventually emerged, but it takes tenacity and a strong sense of purpose.
    Technically speaking, during this times lower aspects of us (negative beliefs and emotions) are forced at the surface (because of our effort in the “3 steps forward period”) and do manifest in the physical 3D. It’s an exam actually, since once brought to surface we have to deal with this believes according with our higher new acquired understanding of our soul. If we miss it and we react as in the old days then we fall back to where we started our spiritual journey, at square one, it’s that simple. About 95% of spirituals from my observations do miss to respond appropriately in this period and fall back …

    1. Dear Claude,
      Yes indeed a very dark night of the soul. It did feel like 3 steps forward and 2 steps back the first time around. The most recent one felt like a fall from grace. I’m on the other side now and I do feel that much in my way has been cleared. I guess I’m one of the fortunate 5%. I know people that did not make it through such a transition period. Sx

  4. Dear Steve,
    Thank you so much for sharing the meaning of awakening and especially your own awakening process. it has been very honest, inspiring and empowering for me, as I got many insights regarding my transformations along this journey.
    I am sending you lots of love and wishes for the new year!

  5. Thank you for writing this article. I am going through an awakening right now and at times I feel like I just want to run away from everyone and everything. Your words have given me a lot of comfort.

  6. Great Comfort in knowing others journeys are similar! Loved your ebook that elaborated on your ascension pathway. Mine has been ongoing with the pinnacle about 5 years ago. It hasn’t always been easy but worth it! As a healer myself, I can relate! ❤️ Especially to short circuiting things! My specialty was setting off car alarms and causing main frame computers to glitch! Not something you advertise on your business card, but oh so true. 🙂 You are blessed and I appreciate your spirit and gift. As a Mississippi native in the US, I am certain I stumbled across your transmissions for a reason! I travel to Europe often. I hope to make it to a workshop in 2017.

  7. This article is very relatable. The insights into your personal journey make for an exciting read as I’m sure others have had similar experiences. I can attest to a few of the feelings and emotions you’d entailed within the section explaining the difficult awakening period you’d journeyed through. Even the thought of your “then” wife or other acquaintances not really being as receptive to the changes you’d began to make was a moment of solidity for even my own experience. I also really appreciated your dual viewpoints on awakening as related to your own experiences in the sections “beautiful and difficult” awakenings. This is definitely a great read. I look forward to many more insights!

  8. Really, it helps to improve the internal power and Skype Spiritual Coach can help to change your life, teach you life changing lessons with healing process.

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Steve Nobel

I am the author of 6 non-fiction books, the most recent being a free Ebook entitled ‘Starseeds’ and my latest published book is 'The Spiritual Entrepreneur'. I was a director of a not for profit spiritual organisation called Alternatives (based in St. James’s Church, Piccadilly, London W1) for 13 years, leaving on the Winter Solstice of 2012. Subsequently, I began my own healing and awakening work. I created a healing system called Soul Matrix Healing for Starseeds. I have created a library of free resources including meditations and transmission to help Starseeds. These are are freely available on this website and on my YouTube channel. These meditations and transmissions are played all over the world and so far, the platform has over 172K subscribers. I regularly runs events in the UK.

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